2021 03 25 1732

i was 10 years old when i first attended the su group at hutchesons' boys' ( as it was then ) grammar school. i'm guessing that i was 10 - it could have been any time while i was in p5 to p7. 

i remember boss meiklejohn telling us that the nails must have gone through jesus' wrists, not his hands, and through his ankles, not his feet. i remember singing 'i've gotta home in glory land'. and, of course, i remember taking home a booklet, and reading it, and giving my life to jesus, but failing to tell anyone within 24 hours ( as instructed by the booklet ). i also remember observing that when i started to read the booklet, i felt ok, and wondering if the writers of the booklet intended to make me feel worse, so that they could take the credit for making me feel better subsequently. 

so, i guess that i am no longer a christian. it's time to move on ...