2021 03 29 0859

matthew was unable to book his accommodation for next academic year ... 

2021 03 27 0827

there was a deer / on this side of the river / less than 10 yards away ( i reckon ) ... 

2021 03 26 1537

is verdi's requiem sacred ... 

2021 03 25 1732

i was 10 years old when i first attended the su group at hutchesons' boys' ( as it was then ) grammar school. i'm guessing that i was 10 - it could have been any time while i was in p5 to p7. 

i remember boss meiklejohn telling us that the nails must have gone through jesus' wrists, not his hands, and through his ankles, not his feet. i remember singing 'i've gotta home in glory land'. and, of course, i remember taking home a booklet, and reading it, and giving my life to jesus, but failing to tell anyone within 24 hours ( as instructed by the booklet ). i also remember observing that when i started to read the booklet, i felt ok, and wondering if the writers of the booklet intended to make me feel worse, so that they could take the credit for making me feel better subsequently. 

so, i guess that i am no longer a christian. it's time to move on ... 

Anguish

i have only two memories of jock - of losing him ( briefly ) on the slooes of Beinn Y Ghlo - and of sitting with him on his last whole day, on the back seat of the car, as we travelled from Woodborough to Bridge of Earn ... 

2021 03 09 1927

 trying to be honest // if I needn’t be here ( in Bridge of Earn ) / then I shouldn’t be // there is a cost // there is a kind of catch 22 // if granny has company, then she copes reasonably well, and doesn’t appear to need help // but ( I suspect ) if she is alone / then she deteriorates ...